RYL Forums - Just need to rant

Hi guys! I just need to rant, I sent an email to my counselor at college about this, so I'm just gonna copy and paste what the email says. Pretty much my mother called me ungrateful and truthfully...I don't know why? We tend to clash here and there and it's annoying as hell.

~Thanks for replying, truthfully, I don't know when we'll be able to talk face to face, unfortunately.

So today me and my mom was talking about an incident rather earlier today about her friend coming over and whatever. Not really about her friend coming over, but mainly because when she was buzzing the guy in, I didn't get up to put pants on right away when I was going to do so. She then calls me into the kitchen to talk about it ( obviously ). Anyways, she went off on me and I'm trying to explain to her that I was going to put pants on and everything and of course she's not letting me finish talking so then I just let it rip about how I can't talk to her and talking to my dad is easier than her and then she went off telling me how I'm being disrespectful, I'm ungrateful, I'm this, I'm that.Okay, she cut me off before I even wanted to finish that sentence I told you, I wanted to tell her that I can talk to my dad easily than her and that I don't have to walk around eggshells with him. But she goes off on me saying how I'm very ungrateful, I'm this, I'm that and I'm just trying to talk to her but she's talking over me.

Anyways, it went off into a thing, I don't want to say an argument but I guess because her friend is here, but I was just trying to keep my cool and still am. I'm assuming after her friend leaves she's still going to go off on me. I tried explaining to her that since middle school I could talk to him about anything. But of course she didn't listen to that part and then she's like "go your way, he's good and I'm bad" and no where did I say that he's good and she's bad, just because I said how I can talk to him easier doesn't mean I meant how she's the bad mom, and of course she went off saying how she pays my school fees, my this, my that and honestly, I don't know if I should care, or just keep my mouth shut, I guess I will keep my mouth shut, but it's very annoying having to deal with this, it's like when we do talk, it doesn't go calmy or whatever, it turns into her saying I'm so ungrateful and whatever. And honestly, it's very, very, very just...I don't know anymore. I'm gonna be on my toes for now on until...until I move out? I don't know. I'm not really looking forward to this month off.

She also went off saying how he's only like that in hopes to get back with her and honestly, like I said...since middle school he has been like that, but with him, I never have to walk on eggshells with him, with her, I do, sadly and I don't know if she gets that or not~

I don't have friends because that's a long story, I do have an online boyfriend that's a doll to be with, other than that I don't have people that live here to talk to my like that besides my counselors who is helping so much since I've been talking to her for six months so far. I'm also a female 20 years old and in college.

Thanks for reading, I just needed a place to rant and this may sound embarrassing but I also posted this as a question on yahoo answers.

Thanks for reading.