Putting a relapse behind you.
 

Hello,

Firstly, I want to apologise as I'm likely to make s few threads as I try and navigate big changes in my life.

I'll be starting a new job soon, my first full time job, and I'm not sure my head-space has really ''moved on" from how unwell I was earlier this year.

I feel like maybe I haven't validated how bad it was to myself, and so I'm trapped, scared that when I start this role I'll feel the same way I did, I remember the breakdowns and wonder if that will happen.

I really feel scarred by how unwell I was because it blew up in my face and everyone knew - even on placement where I could usually hide it.

I'm both worried it will happen again and wishing my brain wouldn't revert to the past.

Any ideas or advice or tips? I'm thinking I'll bring it up with my psychologist, I'm going to write a list of starting-work concerns for us to work on.

Thank you for reading and your support.
You've been fab :)

Maybe a good first step is to think about your early warning signs? And what to do when they appear. So you'd be less likely to have a sudden, unexpected relapse. You might notice one or two signs and then be quickly able to put into place coping strategies and such.

Remind yourself you're strong and capable. Don't dwell on what happened at university last year, use it as a learning experience and a chance to grow. Think about the aspects of it that were positive.

I think it's a great idea to talk about it with your psychologist!