Talking with my old pediatrician?
 

Back when I was a child I was taken to see a lot of doctors. I was diagnosed as a baby with Hydrocephalus and had a VP shunt placed; I was also diagnosed with ADD. I was told by so many doctors; so many reports by teachers that I did not fit in or work as they thought I should. I remember a parent saying at a Hydrocephalus conference to my dad (not to me) "Make sure you get her on the disability pension when she finishes school".
Fast forward to now: I have a degree and graduate certificate- I studied psychology and counseling; I am completely independent; I work up to full-time hours WORKING with people with disabilities who trust me because I know how it feels; I have a partner; I have friends who like me and don't make me feel like I'm strange like I was made to feel growing up.
My main care as a child was through one paediatrician who saw me every 6 months. Lots of these things said I have overcome but find I sabotage myself a lot. I have an eating disorder and problems with anxiety and depression which very much stem back to not feeling worthy of what I have. I am seeing a psychiatrist in the city where my paediatrician still practices. It's been nearly 14 years since I've seen him and through my study and work I know very well that things people say- even doctors aren't always right but I wondered about seeing if I could see my pediatrician again to talk with him about this. I don't know if he will, but does anyone else have experiences in this and what they have done?
Sorry for the long post

You've done so amazingly well despite everything, you must be such an inspiration to your patients. :-)

I guess I know the answer but I want to ask if some of the things said could have been wrong.
My parents believed every word every doctor said so I was just told ad hoc that driving a car would be difficult for me, getting work etc. It felt like the biggest LIE when I opened up to others and they said it was for them too- there was such a huge element of learned helplessness but until I moved out of home this idea that I wasn't capable was pretty much dictated to me by my parents and lots of people they spoke to on a daily basis.
Thanks so much lovely- I don't think it's anything special though. I never give up. Never truly so I don't know if I could say I know any better than to keep trying. It's the believing I find hard. That's all I teach at work too- keep trying and believe you can. Easier said to others than done though

I think I will get in contact with him. I think it will kind of close things for me, even if he refuses to see me because I'll know what kind of a doctor he is