Stuck in a vicious cycle
 

It's only recently that I've come to terms with the fact that I'm stuck in this vicious cycle where something goes wrong and it makes me feel terrible, like something I did triggered it. I get angry with myself and so on. Then I just want to tell someone but there's no-one TO tell so I just bottle it up. I feel like I'm going to burst any second and no-one has a clue. I need advice or at least some comfort that this isn't just happening to me!?

Hey- I can certainly identify with what you've said, you're not alone!
Have you ever spoke to your GP about these feelings? They could refer you to services that'll offer a space to talk.

The hole in the sidewalk

An Autobiography in Five Short Chapters

By Portia Nelson

Chapter 1

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost … I am helpless.
It isn’t my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter 2

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
But it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter 3

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in … it’s a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

Chapter 4

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.




Chapter 5

I walk down another street.