Messed up with a girl
 

So a while back I got really mad at myself and planned on killing myself that day but didn't so I tried to cut off contact with some people I cared about a lot. There's a girl I met at a band competition and she was really cool and I got her number and we started flirting. She knew that I was depressed and suicidal but I tried to not talk about it and almost never did. She also happened to be best friends with a girl at my school that I used to crush on and am currently friends with. I texted her one day to never talk to me again and blocked her number for about a month. The other day there was some good news in my life and decided I needed to apologize. I told her I was sorry and how I was just really angry that day but she was upset why I would do that if she didn't do anything. She has yet to respond to my last text from yesterday about her not being able to understand from her position. She acts like a sweet girl and we used to have great conversations but I do know that she used to or still is suicidal but she mentioned only once. Any advice would be appreciated.

Try to be honest with her and tell her that you acted irrationally as were struggling yourself and thought that distancing yourself from people who you cared about made it easier for you to act out on the negative thoughts. Maybe tell her that circumstances changed for the better and you realised you made a mistake and want to make it up to her as she had no part to play in you cutting off contact.

I don't know what to tell you. I've been down that road so many times where simple mistakes make people stop talking for ever.

Try fighting for her. If you can see her in person, even better. She can't avoid you then.

Worst comes to worse... well idk you're already at the point where you have nothing to lose in the situation since you already lost her.