Trying not to start...
 

Over the past couple of years I have been thinking about self harm a lot.

Sometimes cutting, sometimes burning...I just think about it and I'm not sure why, except for when I get upset. Same goes for suicidal thoughts. Sometimes I feel like I want to do it just to do it...which kind of scares me.

Maybe it's partially about attention; I do feel like if I did start people would see and I would get more help but I know that's not a great thing. I do know that when my self esteem is really low and I get upset it's definitely something I think about in terms of punishment and emotional release.

I'm not really sure what to do :Undecided: I'm happy that I've been able to be strong this long and I plan on going to counseling, but some days even certain advice doesn't seem to help much. It kinda sucks thinking about how this is something I will probably just have to deal with for the rest of my life, along with my depression/anxiety.

Yomo! Have you tried to put your thoughts on paper, it helps me a lot to clear things up "slow everything down" and sometimes it makes it easier to see why one feel how one do.

Big hugs!

maybe you can find something you really like and it can help you keep your mind off of it


don't know if that helped
hugs & kisses

^ thank you both so much :) *hugs and kisses*

I apologize for the late response. I have tried writing my thoughts down, it does seem to help a little, and I'm working on finding a hobby that can distract me well enough. Still working on it!

Glad you've been able to at least try to find a hobby. It takes a while, but sometimes you gotta listen to your heart. Whatever your heart likes doing that is safe.... that's what you should focus your spare time on.