I hate my college and everything around it.
 

I have been in school for 5 years. I did majors that I was never really fit for me and I only did them becausey mom wanted me too. From biology to engineering, it was always a struggle. No matter how hard I studied in those classes, i never got the grades I needed to move forward. I struggled in the lower level classes and it gave me no confidence for the upper level courses. I finally got into engineering school at Texas a&m and I got in state because my parents moved to Dallas when I was a freshman. But from the moment I got there, nothing went right. Financially, personally, and education, i could never get what I needed. My mom finally let me change my major but I feel like it's too late. My brain is shooting blanks and it's not functioning well like it could. I felt that maybe I was better suited to working with my hands, but my mom would have none of that and wanted me to finish my bachelors. That require 54 hours and I would have to take a full load this fall, spring, and both summer terms to graduate by next summer. But My brain has completley given up on me and I just feel like **** right now. Idk what to do. But I am not feeling this place at all and it has even messed up my relationships with other people. I cannot maintain a good friendship or even begin a relationship. I have seen counseling and she thinks that taking some time off and getting a trade would help. I am just scared to follow through.

I don't know what your financial situation looks like, but your therapist's advice sounds very sound really. Sometimes you do need some time away to tackle things better.

On the other hand convincing your family will be hard.

Is there any way you could try to get an internship for a semester to get some time away from academia? That may be a good middle ground.

I was thinking about moving back to my old hometown. And gettingy associates online. While I am doing all that, I would try and pursue other hobbies.

And my financial situation sucks. I have very little money.

You need to do what's right for u, not what ur mum wants u to do. It's good that she cares alot about ur future and goals but is it something u wanna do? No! I dont know wether u know what u want to do.

Have u tried to seek careers advice from ur college? If so what have the suggested and if not why can't u have a chat with them and say what u wanna do but how u can go about it with following ur career? As for ur mum I think u need to talk to her and let het know that the engineering biology isn't for u and u don't wanna do that. Thats all u need to say to her. What has ur dad said?

Do u know when ur next going to college? When do u finish this course ur at? I think u should still see a careers advicer as it may help u in what u wanna do. There any other help u can receive right now? You mentioned ur counseller?

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Hi there,

It sounds like this is really difficult for you right now and it's affecting your mental health quite a lot.

As said above, you need to do what's right for you, at the end of the day it's your life and it'll be you who's living it and working along that career path, no one else.

Perhaps speaking to someone at college would help you think a little more clearly? They are there to make things work for you.

I often find my brain power goes down when I'm struggling mentally, I can't focus or concentrate on anything. I can't answer simple questions or hold conversations. I might be what's happening with you right now. If so, time out from things would be helpful.

x x x

How u feeling today? Are u able to talk to ur mum now or?

Remember were here if u wanna talk. We can understand why it's difficult for u to open up to ur parents when all they expect are hood things for u but u have to do what's right for u as what Patent Pending has said.

There anyone u can talk in the mean time? Teacher or friend from college? Please don't bottle things up and speak to someone when u get chance. Hopefully they can give u advice on what to do.

If u need anyone to talk to in the mean time then u can always contact The Smartians for someone to listen to u.

Thank you. I know what I have to do to get myself out of this mental pit, it's just getting myself off the ground. My family doesn't believe in the depression. They will just say "suck it up."

Hi there,

It's good you know how to get yourself out of feeling like this, is there anything we could do to help you get started?

x x x

That's not nice for them to not understand what ur going through just cuz they havent been through it themselves. There's no excuse to act the way u do. I'm not sure what they are trying to get at.

I'm sorry ur family isn't being very supportive. Have u spoken to friends who maybe more supportive? What is it u want in urself to move forward? Could u think about all the things what makes u happy and others what don't? Pros and Cons?

Have u got a counseller who u can go and see? I'm not sure wether u said u do or not. I hope u can get to speak to someone if u can't speak to anyone else. What about The Smartians two ?


Your not on ur own :)

Thank you. My mom is willing to let me to apply to places. So she is willing to let me go my own path.