I think i'm going to cut again , its been 5 years...
 

I don't think ive ever been this stressed for a long time , i'm supposed to be taking my kids to blackpool in the UK for 5 days. The hotel is paid for , the coaches are booked.

But i've been messed around for 2 days by this guy who was supposed to be buying my computer off me on gumtree. Its basically a must or i cant take them.

I feel under extreme pressure at the moment , and i'm 99.9% sure im going to. I just cannot believe its coming down to this again.

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I really hope you feel better in the morning. It sounds like there's a lot of pressure on you right now financially. Would it help to talk to your bank about an overdraft or credit card for a short-term solution until the computer sells?

Hope you didn't cut hun message me on fb if you want x

Don't give up on yourself and what you've achieved. Sounds like things are really tough for you right now, but try your best to relieve the stress through something healthy, like music, writing, drawing, going for a walk when you feel like your head is all over the place, just partaking in any kind of activity that you enjoy and that you find eases your mind. You're so strong, five years clean is remarkable, keep at it as best you can and remind yourself that you have a right to be proud of your clean streak, and a right to hold onto it too!