Help please
 

I can't stop myself, well that's what it feels like, anyway. From what you ask? Hurting myself, I was triggered by a specific item at Wal-Mart today, and I couldn't cut myself so I banged my hand on the metal part of the shopping cart. I think this will become a new way to harm myself without anyone knowing.... Now I think I fractured something in my hand ( Not my palm, but the other side )

I don't know if i can help myself

Plus, I Have been cutting where it will hurt most and damage most lately, like my back, and last night I cut in between my breasts. I keep getting ideas of cutting all the way up to my spine.

Help? :notsure:

I've had that happen to me, too. I work at walmart and sometimes i have to put away returned items and sometimes i come across triggersome items. Its not a good feeling. Is there any way you can avoid being near triggering items next time you have to go to the store? That's what i do - i just avoid going down the aisles that i know have items that trigger me.

It sounds like you're having a really rough time with your self harm. Do you know of anything that might help you when you feel triggered? There's a distraction advice list under the 'advice' tab if you want to look at that and maybe get some ideas. Sometimes i find that throwing myself into a task (like cleaning, or work) helps me, deep breathing, music, or a movie as well. Do you have anyone to talk to, like a friend, family member, or counselor? Also, I won't tell you to try to stop cause i know from personal experience its not that simple...but i will say that if you're getting dangerous with the self harm, at least make sure that you're taking proper care of your injuries so you don't end up with an infection or such.

I love what KariNicole said. I can get triggered really easily too and one thing that has helped is just to take a deep breath and hold it for a minute. not long enough to faint though... but just long enough that you've cleared your mind and you feel able to fight it again.

try not to be in a room alone. other than that I don't know what advice to give... sharpie markers work for drawing on your body. you get a little bit of the stimulus that cutting can give through simply drawing. plus that gives you a lot of colors and different options that cutting won't and makes for a good distraction. try waiting twenty minutes before you cut. it's usually enough time to let the urge die down a bit. if not twenty, then thirty, forty, fifty, an hour... watch a tv show or movie, tell yourself to wait till it's over. texting with someone helps if you can't talk, otherwise talk to someone on the phone!! and have people check up on you--if you feel like you have an urge ask someone to check on you in the morning. often the accountability and the idea of the amount of guilt I'd end up with from letting someone down makes me not cut even if I want to.

I'm sorry you're having so strong of urges! they aren't fun. :/ if you have any questions about what I wrote or need to talk pm me!
brynn