Heading for a meltdown
 

I just feel like I'm getting worse and worse and I don't know what to do, I keep going back to see my doctor but I can never adequately explain how awful it is inside my head at the moment. I can't talk to my parents or my friends because they don't need any more stress, but every waking moment I'm screaming inside. I don't want them to increase my antidepressants and anti-anxiety pills any more, I feel like I'm approaching some sort of breaking point and I'm terrified.

I'm so sorry that this post doesn't really make much sense, I just want somebody somewhere to understand that I'm falling to pieces in my own head and can't see any way out. I don't know what advice I'm asking for but I just want a friend.

x

*pokes* chin up *gives soft punchy thing on the chin* life isn't so bad , well it is life sucks balls, but it could be worse I mean you could be hanging from your toe from a tree caught in some kids rabbit trap or eaten by a bunch of fire ants, or have a bunch of sharks put up warning signs around you warning other sharks not to eat you I would assume that would be pretty bad for the self esteem. there is no advice here as I don't know what to say apart from boop.

Could you try writing things down for your doctor so it's all clear for them before you go in? Sometimes it's really hard to explain exactly what is going on in a way that actually describes how bad it is for us. Maybe writing it down will make it easier for you to get the words out without getting caught up when you try to speak them.

Sorry I don't have many words, just wanted you to know that someone was reading.

Don't bottle it up. Keep it bottled and it will eat away at you and destroy you. What green lantern said is a good idea, when the feelings come, or there's overwhelming emotion, write it down, keep it and use that when it next comes to seeing the doctor. I would also consider therapy of some kind too, in my opinion, the tablets in the long term will only mask whats going on. If you need anyone to talk to, whenever, i'm available.

Hey Hannah! I hope you're feeling a little bit better. As far as advice goes, all I can say is to try to do healthy coping skills like journaling, exercise, and yoga and definitely talk it out with your therapist. Maybe write him/her a letter of what's going through your mind and things you want to work on.

Other than that I just want to offer you my support and empathy. Having severe depression in the past and borderline personality disorder and panic disorder now, I know how it feels to be in such a dark place and feeling hopeless about it. I'm on a great medication recipe now and actually pretty stable. I hate to say it but maybe that would help, as well?

Just know we're thinking of you!