Crashing
 

Recently I have been going for a coffee once a week with the people that I am on a self esteem and self confidence course that I am on. I really enjoy it and the people are great but hours afterwards I feel so low and unhappy. It's like some form of extreme mood swing. It's as if my mind is telling me that I don't deserve to be happy. We've been meeting for a couple of weeks now and it happens every single time.

Does anyone else get like that or know how to stop the crash? Also should I tell my cpn when she comes tomorrow?

I crash after being social. Even if i am having fun.

Ever since i was a kid, being social is a big strain on me. I often need to be by myself and sort of reload after. Mum told me i did this when i came home after kindergarden where my sister just ran to play with other children, i went to my room. After a few hours i would come out and i could play. School was also very hard for me for the same reason.

I often experience low mood, tiredness and so on after. Spending a weekend or so with other people, even though its fun, takes a lot from me as being social does not come as natural to me as it does to some others. I also often have to go home from social situations because it gets too much. I love seeing other people but i cant for too long at a time as it drains me.

It often takes several days to reload after a social situation.

Thanks Morpheus. Sometimes when the voices are really bad I purposely isolate myself away from other people because I find talking to anyone, even my cpn, really emotionally draining. But this is different because when I am having a bad time with the voices I feel physically shattered. I know it's different because I don't feel tired more like depressed. Also the voices have been really good lately (except on Sunday). I feel as though it is more of a mood swing.

I think I will mention it to my cpn when she comes tomorrow and see what she says.