Not going to court.
 

The case isn't going to court. The procurator fiscal has decided that there isn't enough evidence to prosecute him.

The only reason that I sometimes fought against the urges to commit suicide was because of that small, glimmering light of hope. I thought that, perhaps, I could help other children. I could go to court, find him guilty, and prevent the same thing from happening to anyone else. But no. It's not to be.

Now, there is no reason to hold on. None. And, I'm scared. I don't even have the court case to live for. I don't know ... :'(

thing is, it's not made a difference.
nothing's being done about it ... and, i dunno.
:'(

Aww, I'm sorry hunny. Things like that do happen, but it sucks when they do. *massive huggles*

But think about it - speaking out makes a difference, definitely. Maybe not the outcome you wanted, but things won't go back to how they were before with him. There'll always be that question mark in other people's mind.

Please take care hun, you don't need to die because of him. Don't let him win this fight.
*huggles*
xx

*hugs you really tight*

I'm so sorry, hun. My sister had a similar experience as she went through a lot of emotional trauma giving her statement to the police and they looked into it but said there wasn't enough evidence for it to go to trial.

I can imagine how you're feeling right now and I'm so so sorry. You did all you could, though. You have been incredibly brave and it won't have been fruitless. They will still have logged an allegation against him and if someone else also reports him, that will get taken into account.

You still have things to hold onto. My sister is currently working a full time job, is in a relationship and is looking forward to a great future. There is no reason why you can't heal from this and have the fantastic future you deserve. You should be really proud of yourself for having the courage to go to the police and report him in the first place. You have the strength to get though this.

Take care of you. We're all here for you. *holds you tight*