Feeling in a mess *mentions drinking*
 

Hey guys

Firstly I'm sorry for keep posting and pissing everyone off and making no sense and in sorry for this post but here goes

So zoe says i am doing better an coping well i disagree this ... I spend all my money gettin drunk I end up in dangerous situations .. I hate to at this I can not control this just like the way I never use to with the cutting .. I fink to forget how much I hurt I don't want to I don't want to mess things up with contact .,


Everyone around me family and friends says it is a problem ... The last incident this week I apaz was picked up too home and my gf called my dad todrive down to pick me up but I refused ..

I seriously have tried to tell zoe it's a problem but I don know wait to do my dad's not afraid to go down section route if he needs but he's trying to prevent that so contact doesn't get messed up ..

I know there's 2 crisis houses were I live that my dad doesn't I wonder if I should perhaps tell him that part of me wants him to speak to zoe and part of me doesn't .

Also I rang zoe yesterday and she said why do I keep ringing her I thought that was the point I my sw to be able to talk to her when I'm struggling and it was cuz I made a mess..

Part of me wants to drink even now yet the way it makes me feel after it's getting harder and harder to cope with that and I do worry I'm doing damage ..

I don't need or want lectures or to be told just don't do it cuz I can't I'm not sure what I'm looking for with this post...

But if you read all this then thank you x

Hey honey,

I think it might be best to let your dad talk to Zoe, and explain how much of a problem it has become.

Do you think going to a crisis house away from temptation might help?

It's good you've identified your behaviour as a problem.

x x x

why am i in the wrong wtf thought this place was meant to be supprtive feeling totaly worthless now ...... x

How has the reply suggested that you're in the wrong?

On another point - you are the one choosing to drink so much and so often, nobody else.

i see what your saying but i dpont choose as suh

We all choose. Take responsibility

I don't think Mix Tape said anything to suggest you were in the wrong, I thought she was helpful and supportive.

You seem to be concerned about your behaviour at moment, as do those around you, what do you think would help? You've identified two crisis houses in your area, would going to one of them for a bit help? How would you feel about your Dad speaking to Zoe for you?

How about 'what the fuck how did I say you were in the wrong?' - geez I shouldn't have bothered...

not u mix its moprheous my thing refers to ur always there for me mix im sorry if it seems cnfusing plz i dont want to fall out mix x

It might be a good idea to try taking to Zoe or your dad? It sounds like it would really help to have some support around you at the moment.

Do you know why it is so difficult to talk to her?

I understand how difficult it is to stop drinking, and although it may be a choice, it is similar to self-harm which is also a choice, but many people find it difficult to stop. Is there anything that helps with you drinking less?

Was arrested last night

It's okay honey. Sorry I was in a bad mood.

Do you want to talk about what happened last night?

x x x

Was drunk and a mess and apaz assulted a police officer ....

What happened? Will they reduce/dismiss the charges?

I don't know what happened apaz I also tried to strangle myself to death nearly went unconscious was arrested at 4am roughly y ... I am summonsed to court..in February they won't let it go how can I say I did something do not remember I was assessed for section arged it so meant to engage with crisis... There's CCTV so wtf do I do there ......

You were arrested for trying to kill yourself so you are going to court about it? I don't understand what you've done for you to be charged...

I think if other members have nothing positive to say than they should stay out of the threads., You know who you are you did the same to me.

This isn't helpful. It is trying to antagonise someone into an argument. Just leave it at that - it is not in anyway supporting the OP.


Chrissy, from what you've said to me, it sounds like they were trying to stop you from trying to attempt suicide, and during this, because you were drunk you were a little aggressive.

I think right now it is important for you to engage with Crisis and get some support to help you when you're feeling low or to stop these behaviours that get you in trouble.

x x x

i wasn't I was supporting the poster. but sorry if i offended

Just to expand on this, what I mean is I don't understand what exactly happened to Chrissy last night. What Chrissy wrote doesn't make sense to me and I'm trying to understand it. I've written out my interpretation of events and am hoping Chrissy can come back in and help me understand a bit better.

I could have explained my post a bit better I know but I was on my mobile at the time and was in a rush.

If people have a problem with my posts either message me in private or report them to the mods. I know that I can be blunt sometimes, often without realising. But I think it is unfair to imply I am being mean for the sake of being mean on this thread and others.

Anyway, sorry to take this away from the OP. And apologies if the OP found my first comment offensive.