support for katie - when.will.it.end
 

Katie has been having a really crappy time! I'm really bad at doing these things but I wanted to start a thread for her. I don't want to put loads of details in b/c it's probably private stuff but she is one of my friends and things have been really horrible for her recently. Anyone following her r/v will know what I'm talking about but I'm just glad she's ok
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Hey Katie, I hope things get better very soon!! We all care about you!

** hugs **

I don't really know you, Katie, but I am leaving you huge hugs and supportive thoughts. You seem to be much-loved around here, so I look forward to getting to know you! :)

*hugs*

Thank you for making the thread and the replies.

Things are rough. I just got out of hospital for a pretty serious OD and the whole thing was really triggering and I just want to do it again. I was told I might die and the thought make me so happy and relieved. I had an allergic reaction to the treatment so they had to stop it a few times and the whole process was long. I just want this shit to be over. I'm sick of the same crap I've been dealing with for years. I'm sick of causing pain.

So yesterday I decided I was going to take another similar OD and not go to hospital for it this time, just letting it kill me. I need to plan a little more but I think that's what I'm going to do. That being said I've been in this place before and survived so you never know.

I feel awful.

I don't have many words but leaving loads of love amnd *hugs*

x x x

Aww Katie, I know its easier said than done but please do not take an OD. If you are feeling unsafe then please ring up crisis. Please stay strong and safe.
I am only a PM away if you want to talk to me anytime okay.

Love From Meera xx

Thank you both.

Todays been a nightmare. My care co-ordinator is off sick which is really bad timing. I've ended up being admitted to a day hospital rather than IP but I think my CC would have had me in IP so I'm a bit annoyed about that. It doesn't really matter anyway. I've been doing a bit of research on OD's, bought the stuff and I think I'm ready now. I can't hack this anymore.

Do you want to be IP?

Katie, I'm sorry you are struggling so much, it sounds like you would rather go IP than just a day hospital, which means you seem to want the help and to get better, please don't buy the OD stuff, I know it's hard to believe now, but things can improve.

Does your CC know about your plan?

I think you need to tell people that you want to be inpatient, if that's what you think will keep you safe. You deserve help, and can get through this *hugs*

Thanks,

I don't know if I want IP or not I'm always really ambivalent about it. There are both pros and cons to going in. It doesn't matter cos I'm not being offered an admission anyway. It would stop me from ODing but I'm not sure I want that.

I went to the day hospital today, saw my therapist and a friend. I still feel the same about ending things. I haven't worked out the finer details of how I'm going to tell people that this is whats happening but I think I'm going to overdose tonight anyway.

I'm sorry I'm so shit at life.

You are not 'shit' at life

You are a person who has had so much to deal with & so much shit thrown at her that she struggles to cope. That is not being shit at life. That actually shows that you are strong, because you are still here.

Please try not to OD tonight. Come talk to us here instead?
Call a helpline?

You are a sweet person and we don't want to lose you.

I know it's hard and tiresome and sometimes things just get too much. But please try to communicate to your team what level of support you feel you need. I think you need and deserve a lot of support right now.

*hugs*

Thank you patch. I really appreciate your reply.

I ended up going to bed last night without ODing. I could face doing it. I woke up this morning and I've semi overdosed. I'm an idiot. I'm meant to be going to the day hospital in a bit. I have no idea what to do. If I tell someone they'll make me go to hospital and I'm not sure that's what I want. I'm scared.

Well done for resisting last night!

I'm sorry that things got too much this morning. Could you tell staff at the day hospital?
I understand that you are scared but you'll need to get checked out sweets. As you are more than aware, no OD is a safe OD.

Thinking of you

Thank you.

I told them. Feeling like a class A idiot now.

well done for telling them. Are they going to take you to hospital?

I've agreed to go to hospital voluntarily.

God, I'm a moron.

You're not a moron.

I'm glad you agreed to go x

youre not a moron at all katie,
i hope hospital helps you x