Relapsed.
 

I relapsed :( I was doing so well, and then I wasn't. Relapsing makes me hate myself that much more. I feel as though I should have all of this figured out, but I don't. I feel like everyone else expects me to have all of this figured out, but I just disappoint them with my weakness. :(

Who do you think expects you to have it all figured out? I've spent nearly a decade thinking to myself that I should have this self-harm thing 'figured out'. I can tell you that's done more harm than good. Self-harm is a wonderful coping mechanism that doesn't require any peer support, emotional understanding or much physical activity. It's hard to give up! But you also know that self-harm isolates you from others and often worsens your own self-destructive behaviors. So it's important to dust yourself off after this relapse and try again and again and again. Even if you never fully stop hurting yourself maybe you can lessen the severity and frequency of your self-harm to a point where you and those around you are okay with it. You are not weak! Are you doing anything to replace self-harm like seeing a therapist?

I relapsed today after 7 months clean and feel like a failure