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Things are slowly crushing me down, to the point I've joined this site.
I'm currently recovering from paramol addiction, currently on subutex. That side of my life is under control. It's the fall out from the "coming clean" to my ex partner and mother of my daughter.
She knew something was wrong, promised she'd help me but as soon as I told her, she left. That was 2 and half years ago, I'm well over the relationship but she treats me like a waste of space, calls me a junkie, even tho I've held down my job, even become more successful, this is due to being backed in a corner so I came out fighting. So be she left I still have access to my little girl but every once and a while my ex sends me horrible , twisted text messages. I'd normally ignore them but I'm living in England on my own, all my friends are married and happy. Me, I've been alone since we broke up, I'm 41, can't seem to meet anyone new. I just want to meet someone, to be content and free from worry. But life just keeps slapping me down, I'm sick of it. Everyday is an up hill struggle and I'm getting so very tired.

There seems to be still at least some good things: You still have you job! As unemployed I know that's a lot!

And it is your ex's own shame if she calls you a junkie. You've made a decision to recover and that really needs some courage! She's just blind if she can't see how responsible you are.

It might be hard to find some one new when you're in the middle of recovery. And it takes so much energy that handling a new relationship in the same time could be hard. (Not necessarily though) And I know this is a cliche, but I'm still going to say this because this cliche is true: You'll never know when you're about to meet "the one." It happens always when you least except it to happen. It has happened to me, and every one I know.

I really don't know what else could I say. Just hang in there, you're going to make it! :thumbup:
I mean, really, you're already done 41 years! Even though I don't even know you, something tells me that you are a strong person. Probably because you've even managed to keep your job regardless all the **** going on.

Hi stevo. you are in recovery, like mentioned above its your ex that seems to have the issue. it is difficult to find people and difficult to build meaningful relationships while in a process of recover but take small steps and happiness will come.

it sounds made but each day just put a little thought out there to the universe of what it is you want in your life. I am sure that in time it will happen.

Hi Stevo, I know its been a while, but how are you doing now?