Shattered Hope (poem)
 

Chills creep up my spine
my body shakes from the cold
my arms wrap around myself
i miss you
i need you
i can`t have you
trust me
it`s better left unanswered
isn`t it?
My hands are ice
my heart was made of glass
it broke
and you fixed it
you fixed it over
and over
and over again
but it`s too late for that now
the pieces are inside me
cutting me open
destroying me from the inside out
i am bleeding internally
a single tear rolls down my face
it burns
it leaves a scar that only you and i can see
or now i suppose it would be just me
it was fun
Truely, it was
i was happy for once
but really
i am not worth it
even you can`t make me believe all this
pain too intense for words drowns me
this kills me because i love you
don`t chase me when i run into the rain
the rain that makes me fell nice
i can`t do it
all i would do is look at you
at your face for the last time
my eyes would twinkle for the last time
i would cry my last tears
and say
"i can`t do this anymore"
and that can`t be the last thing i do
and i`m sorry if my eyes don`t sparkle anymore...

I`m holding onto a dream that won`t come true.

I`m a daughter hiding my depression. I`m a sister making a good impression. I`m the girl sitting next to you. I`m the one asking you to care. I`m your best friend hoping you`ll be there.

I like how you've described your heart as glass that has been shattered over and over and how shards are causing you inner pain. It's a really good metaphor and one that is really thought provoking.

Sophie.x