need support
 

Hiya

As you know I am going out with a certain chap I like, we know each other as friends/ex work colleagues and now bf/gf. But there's possibility I could have either have BPD, Bipolar and PTSD but my pysch can't seem to make her mind up. But the trouble is that I am with this chap and needs to know what's out there to support me and help me through it.

I am also worried and anxious about my parents as my mental health issues are getting complicated with possible diagnoses and other stuff. They are not aware of my eating problems all the time and they are not aware of my hair-pulling. I am so scared that they cannot cope with me and I feel like I am a burden on them. Any advice on both topics would be useful.

I was thinking maybe my bf and parents could some sort of arrangement where if things get worse for me and I become unwell, my bf can take the initiative and call them to decide what to with me. I could also ask my cpn Lauren to write up a crisis plan and relapse prevention plan as well.

We've recent has an argument over it at the moment and its making me feel worse that I was already feeling

I'm sorry you had an argument, try and make sure you are both in a calm place before discussing things further. A lot can be said in the heat of the moment that isn't necessarily what is felt.
I think your idea of a crisis plan is a very good idea and something worth speaking to your CPN about.
It sounds like you're feeling very unnerved about your possible diagnosis. Do you think you could speak to your psych about these feelings and your worries about speaking about it with your loved ones?

I will speak to her today over the phone

Didn't manage to speak to her gonna wait till tomorrow and speak to her then

Still haven't managed to speak to cpn been too busy with stuff

I just can't handle life at the moment need help

Have you managed to get hold of your cpn? If youre feeling unsafe could you let someone know or ring the crisis team/go to a&e?

I have told my cpn an she's aware of the situation

Did your CPN have any helpful suggestions on keeping safe or a plan about how to keep safe?

I don't know

She hasn't got back to me

I think you should keep trying to get hold of her. How are feeling at the moment? Do you have any distractions you could try?

Hopeless overwhelmed stressed bored

Distractions do work bit easily get bored quickly

If you get bored easily, could you try switching distraction activities more often? Maybe try having a list of ones you find helpful and when you are feeling you are starting to get bored pick something from your list.

Have you tried to contact your CPN today?

Yes she phoned me she didn't seem to concerned for me

I am gonna write a official letter of complaint and see of a change of cpn can make life easier for me