Hurt Hurt and more Hurt :(
 

Today was an ok day i actually think i managed to fool myself with the fake front i put up. but as usual i lose the strength to keep it up and all the pain and hurt comes rushing back :( I really dont think i can take much more of this. Everything just seems to bottle up and up to the point where the only way out of all this pain that i see is death but what makes the battle harder is the fact that i cant because i never want to hurt my gf in that way. I'm just in so much pain that no one not my friend nor gf seems to see or understand. I dont even feel me at the moment, i've lost sight of who i am because of all the pain and hurt im feeling, i just feel broken beyond repair :Crying:

no matter how broken you feel, you're never beyond repair... the repair isn't going to make you exactly who you were before, but you can take the peices and put them back together, maybe in some different spots, and fill in the gaps with something all your own, that makes the "glued back together" bits the greatest piece of the whole things.