Mother's Day is the worst...
 

It's in 2 days and I don't know how to hold on. I know I won't hear from Keith and I feel like my body will physically die without any assistance from me.

There is no one who can help me. It all depends on me. It depends on how strong I can be. And right now it just doesn't look too good. I'm trying so hard. I'm just so sorry for being a lesbian. I know that sounds crazy but if I was straight, my son would still talk to me and let me know about his life,love me,etc.

I'm just so ****ing sorry.

Rach I wish I could make things better for you I really do. I wish I had the words to take away the hurt your feeling because you really don't deserve it. You don't have to apologise for who you are. You have to hold on to the hope that Keith will come around, it can be hard with teens to deal with things and instead they shut them out. If you can't fight for yourself, then fight for Keith, fight for the chance that one day things will change.

You are stronger than you believe, you just have to give yourself that chance. Could you perhaps plan some things to do to take your mind off what day it is? If you can't keep safe please ring someone or go to A&E. You will get through this. Take care
Kat xxx

Oh Rach. I know today must have been really difficult, but I really do think he will come around when he is older and more mature. How are you doing now?

Thank you guys. <3

Yesterday day was tough but I made it! yay for small victories :)

I'm glad to hear that. :)

So proud of you for making it through hun.