after Easter celebration
 

Today, is Easter, I spent the day with my Girlfriend. My GF is the only person who I can truly be myself abound without the fear of being judged. I met my GF on 2/10/2013. I trust my GF with everything I have. She makes me fell safe enough that I voluntarily gave her my SH tools. She did not ask for them or ask me to stop. My GF just showed me that I am still a person even though I SH sometimes. My GF is the only person who I know who treats me like I am normal and I do not broken. My family (owners) did not ask me to spend Easter with them but, I was more then happy to spend it with my GF. I had a lot of fun with my GF, I had a better time with her then I ever would if I spent it with family (owners). The day started off bad, I woke up in a bad mood. My mood changed with the help of My GF. I am feeling all alone right now. I would like to SH but I gave all my tools to my GF. I just feel bad at the moment. All was going fine until I entered my foster house.

how are you holding out? have your feelings changed at all? i'm sorry it took so long to get a reply, it looks liek there weren't many people around...

can you call your girlfriend, even if you just chat about other stuff it might help cheer you up.

why do you call your family your "owners"?

I can't add much more to what was said above I am afraid, Katie asked some good questions. I agree that getting in touch with your GF when you are back in the house and without her would be a good idea, she seems to bring you a lot of joy and I'm really glad you have someone like her in your life.

You certainly are a worthwhile person, self-harming doesn't change that at all, it just means you're struggling right now but you can get through this.

Take care