Trying trying trying
 

I have decided to call to go in to see my Psychologist today, except I also have work. I missed last week because I was sick (but luckily had the day off from my second job) so, I am going to hope they let me leave early so I can visit my doctor today (I won't say why besides still feeling ill).

But, its hard. I just want to curl up in a ball and just forget about it all. I have homework and work and I just want to say screw it all and sleep.

But at least I am taking a shower today, I know that sounds gross that I consider that an achievement, but I hate washing my hair/getting wet. Its odd, I don't mind baths- but showers- Blugh.

Sorry for the rambling. Now to shower and to scoot to work.

Sometimes when we struggle it's good to acknowledge the 'small' acheivements because they can feel like massive ones, so well done for showering =)

How did it go with the doctor?

The Doctor went well, I told her I did SI and she was concerned about the reasons why, and she was glad I did try and distract myself from it. But she did say that at the moment, whatever inside of me that wanted to SI was bigger than the part that didn't, but I am trying to stop and that is what matters.

And it is really nice to hear a congrats for my little success. I am surprised how good it made me feel to hear. I guess I learn something new everyday. Thank you :D