Struggling today
 

Im feeling really overwhelmed with life at the minute and feel like i need a break. Iv not felt it this much of a struggle since late 2010 early 2011 and therefore feel at a loss of how to deal with it.

I never had a positive way which is kind of sad. Hospital and meds kept me safe. When recovering my bestfriend kept me busy all day til my bf (now husband:-) got home from work. Then he took over. Now my best friend is gone and im worried to tell my husband incase he remembers the worst times.
Im overwhelmed with everyday life. I know i need to keep busy but there is t really alot to be doing right now. My mummy friends seem to all be happy sitting At home due to snow etc which makes it harder for me to fill in days. Still waiting to hear if the two people who made plans for today with me today are going ahead with them. I hope so. I need a friend.