I Miss You Dad
 

I miss you dad so much i know its been 5 year since you died and it would have been your 58th birthday today. Not a day goes by that i don't think about you. I cant describe how painful it is still after 5 years. Im so sorry dad that i could not do your one last wish and help you die, i just wanted you to stay longer it was so selfish of me. Im sorry you suffered for so long i just wish i could of took your pain away. I hope that wherever you are that you can forgive me and your proud of me. I will never forget you ever.
Lotty

Hello Lotty, I'm sorry that your dad died 5 years ago. From reading your post It comes across that you were very fond of your dad, especially as you say you think about him every day. I don't think you were selfish at all for wanting him to be around longer, it must have been a very difficult time for you. Of course I do not know the details of your relationship with your dad but from the caring nature of your words, I feel he would have every reason to be proud of you. The things you shared together and your memories of him, his words to you and so on, will remain with you. As you say, you will never forget him. You'd be very welcome to share some special memories if you liked? I enjoy hearing people talk about moments they shared with their loved ones. My experience of bereavement from important figures in my life is that often there aren't that many times I can share with others how lovely my friends were or how much they meant to me.
Oops, now I have eyes full of tears ... And whilst that's because I feel sad about losing people who were important to me, it's also a good thing because I am thinking about how special they were.... In just the same way that no doubt your dad was special to you.
xXx

I am so sorry to hear you lost your father. I actually lost mine 5 years ago as well (it will be 5 years in May). I am sorry you have had to go though this. I am hoping the time you shared together gave you many good memories. Hopefully you can look back on your time with him and smile. I am sorry he was taken from you so early and at such a young age (my dad would have been 57 in July I believe). So I understand. *hugs* I am here to talk if you need to.