Fear of life?
 

Okay so like I haven't really left my house since I quit my job, I quit because I felt trapped, but now I just feel lost. I'm afraid to go out in public, fear of people judging me and having subconscious negative thoughts of me, It feels likes people are watching. I don't really know how to react to something, I've built a strong emotional wall without even knowing. I swear I can hear whispers in my head. In about two years I went from socially active to extremely socially awkward, I now only hang out with 4 friends and I lost my best friend to a stupid drunken fight I started almost 2 months ago. And I feel like I'm not ready for the future, I would like to be something special or live normally. Well anyways all I'm saying is I have no idea what to do? I've taken many online personality tests and most say I'm schizo or some variant.

I really don't have any advice, but I'd just like to let you know that you're definitely not alone in these thoughts. I can relate to some of these.

Try not to rely on these online tests as symptoms can overlap over a wide range of illnesses as well as normal behaviors, so they're really not reliable. Self-diagnosing may just make you feel worse and confuse your feelings. <3

Do you have any help at all for these thoughts amd whispers? If not I think the best thing you could do would be go to and see a doctor. It might seem a little daunting, but they hear similar things all the time so they will not be shocked or judge you.

- Holly :)

Hello :)

Not everyone has loads of friends. Quality not quantity is important here :)

Echo Holly about seeing a Doctor if you can even though it may be daunting.