Trying & Failing..
 

I know you don't normally see me around here much...&& I'm so sorry to be asking for support but i don't really have anywhere else to go.

Things aren't going too great at the moment. I've been trying for so long to get a hold of this ED and get it under control. Everytime I think I'm making progress, something comes along and knocks me straight back down. This time I even started SH again too.

I just don't know what to do anymore. No matter what I cannot feel comfortable with the body I see in the mirror, the BMI, the weight, anything!
I purged for the first time in a good few months today....

I don't really know what I'm expecting from this post...I just needed to get it out there I guess.

Hi. dont feel at all bad for posting- people are here to help and its good that you have posted.
im sorry things are hard. im not in a good place to offer much advice but wanted to reply. are you getting any professional help or support from family?

thats good that your family are supportive. my mum is amzing and so understanding. she didnt really get it at first but she does now. I think it must be a hard thing to understand unless you have been through it or known someone who has.
do you think you could chat to your boyfreind and suggest ways he could help you? he probably really wishes he could but like you said, doesnt know how. I used to write my mum letters telling her how i felt and suggested ways she could help. sometimes that can be helpful and easier than talking.
this is hard and i know what you mean about getting back on track then it knocks you down, but you can do this. you have taken a great step in posting on here and that takes courage often, just to ask for help.
i struggle with body image and fighting those thoughts so much also but i find this website really helpful- http://www.hungertorecover.com/recoveryselfhelp.htm
it has different coping strategies and how to fight those negative thoughts. it may help you a little.
do keep posting and remember that you deserve help and to get well.x

no problem. i hope it helps. I have started a journal and copied down some of the quotes, motivations etc. do you keep a journal or anything?
hope you are ok today. do post anytime andn feel free to pm if you need a chat.
take care

I don't no...but I may start one. Looks like they are quite helpful.
Thank you for all your replies.
Same goes for you...feel free to PM me.
Take care. xx