first relapse in a while
 

I've been trying to stop chewing/spitting food but had my first binge yesterday....

i did stop myself until it got out of hand ... Today in not all that happy about myself :(

just needed to get this out - its playing on my mind

Heyy...saw you posted this a few days ago...but I didn't want to leave it with no replies.

I'm sorry you didn't feel happy with yourself, but well done for stopping yourself before it got to out of control. We all have slip ups or bumps along the way, try not to think of it as a relapse.

I hope you're feeling better a few days on.
xx

tbh im feeling really bad .. Im feeling very angry with my self .. I struggle finding a healthy medium and no im not feeling good about my body at all but in trying my best really :(

ive booked to see my gp next Fri to see if i can get some support

thanks for your reply xx

Sorry you're still not feeling good. Well done for booking to see your GP though!

xx

thanks ... Just feel like giving up ... Gone from feeling so positive to so low xx

I just wanted to say that I've seen you be so supportive to others around the forum and to thank you for that. It's great to see someone being so selfless, especially when they're struggling themselves. I'm sure that the other people who have threads you've replied on are very grateful and you sound very caring and kind. That's a reason not to give up, to keep fighting and to keep on trying. You're good nature. Now, it might not seem like much to you but it's precious and not a quality held by everybody in the world. Hold onto the lovely person that you are.

Relapses can be hard but they are not necessarily defined. A relapse can be a slip-up. It doesn't have to be a full blown return to the behaviours you once held dear. You don't have to go back to the person you were when you were coping with food in such a way. The binge should show you how far you've come and, consequently, how far you can go again and you can do better next time. Relapses are okay, they're allowed, you're only human, you're not Superwoman. You cannot expect yourself to be perfect.

Do you know what it was that caused you to relapse? Perhaps it would help you to identify that and to try to 'fix' it (so to speak). That might make you stronger to fight again and be as amazing as you have been with recovery so far.

Thanks so much for this in very touched :) ... My relapse is my emotions and im starting to focus on weight loss again ... IM wanting to stop the whole chewing / spitting food thing .. I cant actually bring myself to eat the foods i do this with .. Of i just allowed myself treats etc and didn't feel guilty i wouldn't do this :( ... IM making a fresh this weekend and im really going to try to think positive / think about my bf and how much happier i will be if i just don't bin food .... I have to try actually eating it rather than just wanting to taste without energy consumption. .. That's Going to be my goal for next week .. One week of not bingeing or chewing/spitting food and see how i go .. If i make short term weekly goals and succeed then hopefully before i know it this behaviour will go .. Meanwhile im going to see my gp next week ... Thank you so much once again. .. I like helping people as i know how hard it is to hit rock bottom .. IM nowhere near as poorly as i once was but i still have a way to go .. Hope yours well this has really made me feel a bit better :)

life is a journey and we all need to live it

Hugs that's a great plan . Good luck xx

Xxx

life is a journey and we all need to live it