giving up...
 

i give up on life, im done... its not worth it anymore. Not worth hurting people... or getting hurt... so im done! i keep ****ing up over and over again, i cant do it anymore. I cut and it takes away some of the pain for a little bit... but not near long enough. thats the only way i see out of this mess i put myself in. i think about it everyday... how easy it would be, and fast to just end it all. how all it would take is a few pills, or a gun... and all these problems are gone. im done living. the good times i had were enough... i dont need any more, or any bad ones.... yet every time i do attempt to kill myself.. i fail. I jumped out of a moving car this morning.. and it didnt do ****.. just a ****ed up wrist... i take pills and its never enough... i need to get away from this pain my mind puts on me... i need to stop thinking, just be numb... even if its just for a little while... i just need a way out... sorry for venting... i just dont know what to do anymore...

Hi there,

Nope! It's not time to give up. I know this because I have thought this so many times. I've had many suicide attempts and nearly died from 2 of them.

You mentioned hurting people. If you end your life that will hurt them more than anything!

I have much compassion for you as I've been there so many times.

If you aren't already in therapy, it could help you.

It's not time to give up...it's time to fight!!!

Much love to you.
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I know it's been a little while, but how are you doing today?

im doing better, i actually ended up cutting, the cops came and took me to the er and i ended up staying in the hospital for four days, talked to a psychiatrist and a therapist and got anti depressants and stuff... doing much better now...