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what is right?

Hey Erin
please try and say more if you can about how your feeling
offers a hug

im paranoid
and sad
and panicky
and sick
and i think my knee is infected or something. its all red and puffy
i have this intense feeling of foreboding. something bad is going to happen. i know it.
im scared

hugs you
 

Hey
offers another hug
please dont be scared ,
you have alot going on right now
i know how hard it is not to be worried or panicky
and that thinking something bads gonna happen,
please
try to distract yourself if you can
please look after your knee if you think its infected please get hold of bitter_ angel if shes about or angel dust
take care

i feel over over two weeks ago and its still not healed properly. i was sure it needed a stitch, but thought i was overreacting, but maybe i wasnt
its either infection or an allergic reaction.
and im sure something bad is going to happen

I'd Give ya a hug But I can't find the button :(

sounds like you got a lot on your mind....

*wraps you up and cuddles you*

Feel free to pm me hun, if you want some more info and such.

i just want whatever is going to happen to just happen
the tension, the waiting, the fear, is awful

I know hun.
But it does not nessciarliy mean that something is going to happen.
You sound very anxious about it. Maybe it might be worth getting it checked over to help lessen the anxiety and to reassure you.

i always get this feeling before something bad happens...

Hunni if you think like this then the chances are that you will be conciously and sub-conciously looking for bad and more than likely you WILL find it!

I so wish i was nearer! Id make sure you were safe! Id come sleep on your floor and keep watch over you! Ill drag Chelsea along too so we can do shifts and you two can play boobies or what ever it is you get up to!

I love you loads

xxx

no, this is the feeling of foreboding i get before real, out of my control, bad things happen.
im scared...

Can you go to the doc hun? Im worrying! I think you need to tell someone. If this is entering into familiar territory you have the power to stop it before it gets too much.

I dont want you to hurt anymore Erin. youve been thru enough already!

xxx

Erin, darling, please tell someone.

I think you're awesome, I really do, and you know where I am, any time (unless I'm on the loo :p).

xxx

hmm, my two best friends in the world took me out to dinner tonight
and before i went, i was so nervous, scared
then, i got to where i was meeting them, and couldnt see them. i thought they werent coming, and my eyes started tearing up
i thought they had played a trick on me
my two best friends in the world. two people i trust more than anyone
they were there, of course, i just hadnt checked around the corner
and dinner was lovely, and by the end of it, i was relaxed, though felt a little left out
what is wrong with me?

Oh Erin. *gets leaky eyes*
Its going to be ok.
Im going sleep now but we will talk properly soon.

You are so loved!

Matthew xxx

just wanted to send some good thoughts your way

You're just letting things go to your head a little too much. If you're knee isn't healed properly talk to someone...there's no harm in that. When you start to feel panicy sit down, close your eyes, and take deep breathes to calm down. Your mind is just going a little too fast...its fine. There isn't anything wrong with you. Think positive and stay safe.