.......And now I disappear xx
 

omg....im just so confused
lost, alone
a nothing yet something
i dont want to be like this anymore
just cant take it anymore.....you know what I mean?
sitting here in tears, sobbing my heart out
noone can help me
i know that now
im just so lost
so confused
tormented
life is torture

cry, cry, cry, cry.........and now i disappear
cant take this anymore
just know i love you all
many hugs xxxx

more of the same....
 

for gods sake!!
take it away
take me away
just do something please...
noone can
noone can help
it dioesnt matter
nothing does
never did

i need help
but i dont think anyone can

and now I go
and leave kisses behind xxxx

Rowie can you call the hospital or your husband? I dont think you should be alone.

Please please talk to him and get him to call someone if you cant do it yourself.

I have a fear that being back on RYL is triggering you off again and maybe its a little too soon for you to be back here? I know theres not alot of triggery stuff here yet but perhaps just the very fact of being on the site is not good for you right now?

Please take care! xxx

People can help hunni. You just need to let them know how your feeling.
Matthew is right call the hospital or someone close.
Its not worth throwing everything away for this.
You have come so far. You have sought help.
Dont stop now, continue to get better.

just to let you guys know.
rowie is supposed to be going back into the hospital tomorrow.
she was let out for a day, i believe.
i hope she goes back.
love you rowie bird!!!!
xx

hold on rowie please accept all the support you can
 

Hugs you dear friend

Rowie
i too hope you have gone back to hospital,
please allow the to continue to help you Rowie
as matthew says maybe if its to triggering be carefull of being on ryl
but if you are ok please keep us updated when you can

we are still here and will support you and care about you
we all only want whats best for you
getting help is the best thing for you right now, however scary it is
much love and big hugs coming your way
Dave

when v2 is running again, Dom has said he will move the original support thread over here and i was waiting for that to update. rowie was allowed home on weekend leave, she had to be back by 12 (i think) today to see the drs. she told me this had been the worst week ever. i really hope that is because 'it gets worse before it gets better', i hope you continue to recover rowie, bit by bit, this way you are safe. love you lots and lots, Mand x

love you rowie, keep fighting

xxx

thinking about you Rowie babe xxx