I need mental help please someone
 

Iv had a very hard life i can honestly say i wish i was never born.
My mom and dad have been in and out of prison my whole life me and my twin brother had to drop out of school and get jobs to take care of my sister
my parents are both out of prizon and my dad has a bad gambling addiction all my parents do is fight i left my brother who disowned my 15 year old sister because she got pregnet to go live with my parents now my own brother wont even talk to me. All i do is work and support my mom dad and sister whos about to have a kid i work 12 hours a day with 1 day off i barly even have time to lift for 1 hour a day. I want to leave so bad my dad brings no money home and all he does is drink and fight with my mom. Now im nothing but a high school drop out a ****ing loser iv never had a gf iv never even kissed a girl. I dont know what to do i dont want to leave my mom but i want to get out of this hell hole so bad i didnt get a normal child hood iv had a job since i was 15. I regret coming back to indiana to live with my parents i just dont want my mom to be alone and my brother wont let her live with him. Im so emotionaly ****ed up the only thing i can honestly say im proud of is my body. Im only 19 years old supporting my family who couldnt even support me. What should i do go back with my brother or stay i dont want to leave my mom alone but i cant stand it here i well never ammount to anything all because of where i was born its sad i wish someone would just take me out of my misory

You are NOT a loser!
 

I feel the need to tell you that you are one of the most persevering, incredible people I've never met. I'm not going to lie and say I understand what you're going through because I don't. But I am going through something that reminds me of your dilemma. My sister has manic depression and other issues. She is a habitual liar. She verbally and emotionally abuses me, though not completely on purpose. She has run away multiple times and honestly, I don't know whether or not I should care anymore. But what I've realized is that we can only tolerate so much of something. There comes a time when you are not responsible for anyone's future but your own. You can't always be there to support and take care of others--how will they know how to survive on their own? You can't let other people drag your future down just because they don't have one. I've learned that with my sister. I can't stand up for her because I reached the point where I couldn't let her ruin my life. You are in charge of your life. You make the choices that shape your future. I commend you for being so honorable and staying with your family, but I do think you need to consider the possibility that you need to worry about yourself and what you're going to do with your life instead of what you can do to mend other people's. You cannot be expected to take care of them forever--that is selfish. But do whatever is best for you! Make a life. Find a girlfriend! (never having had one is nothing to be ashamed of!) Be inspired! Find your purpose. And never-never!- give up. Stay true to yourself. Don't change for anyone. Don't be discouraged. You are unique-you are wonderful-you are strong. And I know from experience that leaving loved ones is hard, even when they have hurt you, so if you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm a great listener. So here ends my rant of advice- take it or leave it! I hope I helped in some way. I truly hope everything works out, and I know that your future holds great things. And no joke- if you need to talk, I'm here to listen. --Becca

I believe becca said it all lovely x