ptsd
 

I know noone can diagnose me but is there any way of telling whether I have PTSD? A professional mentioned I probably have it as a result of bullying but it wasn't really discussed, and I'm concerned as to what impact it may be having on my life, that I didn't realise before.

could you try discussing it with the professional who mentioned it to you?

As you say, we can't diagnose you. I also have some PTSD difficulties/symptoms, mostly from bullying. The things that bother me most are the hyper-vigilance and emotional flashbacks.

I also experience some symptoms that relate to ptsd and the fact i could have it was brought up by a counsellor i had last year but i didnt pursue it further. personally i dont think labels matter as long as you deal with the symptoms and their underlying causes.
do you think it would help for you to talk through the symptoms your experiencing with us?

Hey - I can't talk to the professional as I'm not seeing him at the moment. I don't know what symptoms I'm getting (I'm struggling with emotions entirely at the moment to be honest, so starting to resent the meds I'm on), but I know I can't stop thinking about what happened, I keep being reminded about it and I often want to talk about it/say bad things about the people to sort of try and get back at them (even though I don't have contact with them and they'd have no idea of things I'd say). I know that I get nervous walking past people of student age in the street, and I automatically worry they will do something (like verbal abuse) even though they're complete strangers. If I see someone I actually know from school, I'm likely to 'hide'. I have a solid personal bubble too - I like physical contact, but on my terms, and I don't like people sitting really close or standing really near etc, and when I'm anxious my bubble increases so it's like I want everyone to get away, don't come near me. It's sort of a subconscious fear they will do something to me I guess - even if it's someone I really trust like a family member, my brain still relates it to being at school and people grabbing me etc.