tell someone something without telling them...
 

hey again!
i think we need one of these...

you just basically have a place here where you can admit something to someone without having to say it to them.
i'll begin...

<3
i'm so sorry...
i do love you...
i'm just so dumb...
i wish i'd have realised it...
you don't know how sorry i am...
i love you...
I LOVE YOU!
xxxxx

i wish i didn't love you. because then it'd be easier. but i can't not. and as much as i hate you, i can't live without you. you're selfish and moody, you never show love, and i worry that i'll end up like you/ are already like you. i think having the same problem makes us both selfish to each others needs. i don't know what to do about it, theres not much i can do.

-i think i'm falling for you but you don't know about all sh*t to come and 'baggage' i come with. i don't even know if you care about me anymore to be honest.

-i loved you but i was never in love with you and i'm sorry it took 2 years to realise that. i was too young to know the difference. but i wouldn't change the time we had together or do anything differently even though harsh things were said between us. i don't hate you and never will because you were my rock for so long and the only person who i've properly opened up to. i want us to still be best friends, more than anthing.

If i had have know then what i know now would i have stayed away from you? Probably not. Thats the problem. I know your bad for me but i can't help but still need you. We had good times as well right? I wish i could hate you properly.

I long for that smile you used to put on my face,
I long for the endless good-byes,
I long for the "I love you's",
I guess what I am saying,
Is I long for you!
I love you and miss you!

I'm sorry for making you relive those memories. All I want is for you to be safe and happy, I know that means you are always going to pick others before me but thats ok. I love you and you mean to much to me for it to be any other way. Stay safe and happy because I will always love you both more than you will ever know. *hugs*

im so sorry for everyhing that i have put you through. it was never my intention to hurt you, i have tried everything to avoid that. when i pushed you out i was trying to protect you, to spare you from the destruction that i cause. now i realise that i only made everything worse.
i dont deserve you
you deserve so much more than i am capeable of giving.
i am truely sorry for everything.

Can we meet up? Phone me when your next around? Cause i miss all our memories and fun times as kids. I love you baby x

I don't really need the codeine anymore, i just take it because it makes me feel better. Addicted? I don't actually care.

I'm sorry i'm such a cr*p daughter, it's not your fault.

Sometimes i wish we weren't together so i could cut and not have to report to someone. I hate the way your constantly asking me what i've eaten, and if ive thrown up. Its non of your business. Stop telling me to stop smoking, im going to give up in my own time, your just putting pressure on me. I hate the way you act like its all about you. You asked why i hesistated about going out a few days ago. I said becuase i was scared, you said im over it now. Im not though, its still scary. You make it about you, 'i dont want you to diet or we cant eat out', 'why dont you come shopping, dont be silly your over it now', 'its so hard for me having a girlfriend like this...' Sometimes i think it would be better for me to be alone, then i could get this over with without having to worry how it would affect people. Sometimes i feel you just dont get it. I know you try hard, but you just dont get it. But i cant tell u this becuase i know it would crush you.

I'm sorry being so weak. Would make me a HUGE favor? Please call them for me.

i don't want to go to uni, i didn't want to go to college, but they seems like the next logical steps, so i took them. im biding time, thats all.

I don't want to take Biology A Level next year. I'm dropping it at the end of year 12. The only reason I said yes was because you said you wanted me to do it.

I kind of like you. You might be gormless but you're funny and hell you're actually pretty good looking. I want to tell you but I can't. You're out of my league, you like her. My best friend. She'd laugh if I told her I liked you. Damn.

When I told you I was doing fine I lied.

I need you, i'm not sure i can do this alone.

I think you are great set of guys, I do, but they way you talk about women (though amusing sometimes) can be offensive to me, because I am so insecure about my fatness that whenever you start talking about girls I automatically shut down around you. I bet you think I am being mardy. I'm not. I'm trying not to hate myself for not being the kind of girl guys want.
But I love you guys, all of you, cause when you aren't like that, (and that's more my problem than it is yours) you make me feel like I'm not quite such a repulsion to the world. Glad I know you. Really.

It could work

i wish i could take away all the bad stuff so you could be happy. Your an ace mate and you deserve a bit of happiness.

I wish I could tell you how much you mean to me.
But your beliefs and religion mean I never can.
You'd hate me for it anyway.
I'm sorry.

I love you.

I hate you. Go die and rot in h*ll