Morals vs. Meds
 

I'm currently in hospital and I'm sort of really confused and stuck...

I strongly believe that my family is being watched, not only that, but that God's voice speaks to me and right now, God is telling me to terminate my existence on earth and come to Sirius to fulfill more duties that are appointed to me.

My doctor here strongly considers changing my meds to a stronger antipsychotic to "get rid of the voices" and to, "take the focus off Sirius". But... I believe in this really fully, and I really believe in following God's voice, regardless of how crazy, or weird his requests are. I'm not really a die-hard or radical Christian or anything of the sort, but I do believe in God and I believe strongly in completing the tasks that he gives me... even if it means terminating my earthly existance, y'know?

I'm really stuck, though. I mean, I REALLY want to get out of here and go home and I'm willing to do what I have to in order to be discharged... but I don't like feeling like I need to change my beliefs just because people disagree.

I'unno. I just need to know if that's a reasonable reason to refuse meds?

The meds might make things easier for you.
Are the very least, you could try them for a while and see if you prefer it.
Also, if you refuse, they a) will most likely not let you home til you agree and b) may force you.

Yikes.
I really hope that by me refusing to take meds that it doesn't go that far...
I do want to be discharged and get out... but... I'unno.

Thank you so much for your response, though, Aunty T.

Maybe trying the meds wouldn't be a bad idea?
If it is God, surely anti-psychotics won't stop him from speaking to you. So maybe being on the meds could give you something to think about. Just a thought.

If you believe in god then surely you would know that he wouldn't expect anyone to end their life? Maybe you could challenge these beliefs by speaking to the hospital chaplain or something?

I would take the meds and then see how you feel if the voice goes. It mght help you make a decision without it interfering.