Why am I gettin these disturbing thoughts? Please help x
 

Hi, I have put off facing this for a while now but it's not making things go away or get any better. I have been having some really scary horrible thoughts over the past few weeks, I don't know why I am getting them and I can't seem to stop them. They are mainly about things happening to family members that I really love like my grandad and my new baby niece. I'm scared that if I say them that it will make them happen and I couldn't bare that. What is wrong with me? I can't talk to anyone about this because as much as people say they care and want you to talk to them I know really that they couldn't care less. They can never handle what I have to say and don't know what to say back so it's completely pointless. Do you think that sometimes its better to keep everything In? Can anyone please tell me why I'm having these horrible thought and how I can stop them? What's wrong with me? Xx

Hi,
Getting these thoughts does not make you a bad person. It is common for people to think about things that they don't want to happen.
Keeping it to yourself, and being very worried about it, won't help you stop thinking about them. It is like telling yourself not to think about elephants!
There are ways to help you stop having nasty unwanted thoughts. CBT (a sort of talking therapy) has helped me lots.
Can you talk to anyone IRL about this?