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VinceMaddux 27-10-2011 07:40 PM

Make it stop!!!!!!!!!
 
I went to see the doctor today, showed her my cuts and now that I am home I want to cut again, I have 4 so far today. I want to stop but I can't

crazykat 27-10-2011 07:50 PM

What's making you feel this way? What can you do instead to try and distract yourself? Remember the urges will pass, you will get through this
Kat xxx

VinceMaddux 27-10-2011 07:56 PM

I feel worthless becouse of issues in my family, I just leaft an abusive wife and now I wan to work it out, but i know it would do no good , she will abuse me again. I don't know what to do, I'm confused

crazykat 28-10-2011 02:21 PM

It is common to feel quite confused after leaving an abusive relationship. Even though they hurt you at the same time you still want someone to care for you. You did the right thing leaving though, no well deserves to be abused. It might help to receive some counselling in regards to the abuse, how would you feel about something like that? Give it time, with support you will get through this

VinceMaddux 28-10-2011 03:10 PM

I know I did the right thing for me and my daughter by leaving. I know what happened wasn't my fault, but I feel like I could have helped her with her problems if I stayed and tried something different.
I am seeking counseling now and I going to see him next week. I can already feel the effects of the Zoloft and Prozac combo I am on and I feel really good today. But its early, I hope I can keep this mood all day

crazykat 29-10-2011 11:24 AM

It's not up to you to sort out her problems, she needs to come to that realisation herself and to help herself. It's good that you are having counselling and I hope the meds continue to help. Take care
Kat xxx

VinceMaddux 30-10-2011 12:25 AM

Well, today has been good I have not cut my arm or leg at all. I thought that my ex was my trigger, but I saw her and talked to her today and I am fine. She is getting help for her issues. I don't know if we are getting back together (I think I want that) But all I know is I feel alot better and I don't want to hurt myself

crazykat 30-10-2011 11:44 AM

Well done that's great, keep at it. It's good that she is getting help.

VinceMaddux 30-10-2011 03:47 PM

well, I'm on to day 2. Yesterday after I made my post I got down and depressed but I did not harm myself. I cuts are healing nicely and the meds seem to be working. I always suffered from depression, but never this badly.
Hope to day stays good and that I have reached a turning point.:thumbup:

VinceMaddux 30-10-2011 11:43 PM

Must Fight The Urge To Cut, I Don;t Know If I Can:-(

crazykat 31-10-2011 01:47 PM

How are you doing now? Keep fighting, you can beat this. What about trying some distractions?

VinceMaddux 31-10-2011 04:36 PM

I didn't cut myself yesterday, but I ended up hiding in my room most of the day. My arm is heeling nicely and I don't want to mess it up. So far,so good

roiben 31-10-2011 10:37 PM

Well done for not cutting and for letting your arm heal.

Roiben x

VinceMaddux 01-11-2011 01:05 AM

today I failed, I did do it and I am ashames of it although it felt good. It really hard for me to not do it, I know its wrong I just don't know what to do anymore

Dx Bunee 01-11-2011 03:18 AM

Sorry to hear that you cut yourself. *hug* Its okay, you should be proud that you went as long as you did without cutting yourself.

DarkPhoenix 01-11-2011 01:06 PM

You made it for two days, that is fantastic. Every minute, every second you can go is an achievement. In your last post, it sounded like you were tired, like you didn't know what else to do...did I read correctly?

crazykat 04-11-2011 01:04 PM

How are you doing? Try not to see it as a failure but rather a slip up that you can learn from. Was there anything in particular that triggered it for you? The most important thing is you pick yourself up from this and keep trying

VinceMaddux 07-11-2011 08:32 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by DarkPhoenix (Post 3004299)
You made it for two days, that is fantastic. Every minute, every second you can go is an achievement. In your last post, it sounded like you were tired, like you didn't know what else to do...did I read correctly?

I guess that I can look at it as a small achivement, The past couple of days I have made one or tow cuts, I haven't figured out my trigger yet, maybe its the thought of being alone, I don't know, sometimes I think I would feel better if I cut deeper and bleed more.
Yes i am tired, I get tired of it all sometimes, I'm tried of hurting, I'm tried of being depressed,I tired of feeling alone and at times I am tired of life. Every day I have my ups and downs, I an't predict them its like rideing a never ending roller coaster.

VinceMaddux 14-11-2011 12:33 AM

I'm starting to get that sinking feeling again, I want to cut so badly...............

VinceMaddux 14-11-2011 09:00 PM

It can't take it anymore, I want to cut so badly, I haven't yet and I hope that this feeling will pass before I do anything dumb.
Right now I feel like there is no hope and I want to give up, I know I have alot to live for but then again I hate being everyone's problem. I don't know what to do anymore, I want to give up so badly


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