RYL Forums - It needs to be let out!

probably just ranting again. but isn't that just my life story.
struggling so bad right now, i don't know how to describe it. I just feel like I have so much pressure in my chest, but I can't express it in a healthy way. I can't cry, I can't put words to it. It just sits there and seethes and tears away at my confidence and strength. I just feel disgusting all over. And I want to let it go in a healthy way.. but theres no way to tell someone how it feels and have them understand... I've already made to many mistakes today and i'm hoping tomorrow I won't suffer the consequences as bad as I should.... ugh. I'm just ruined. and I am disgusted with my self over the whole deal. I need help, but i just cannot afford it, neither do i have the time to make it to an appointment regularly. how did I get here?...
you know. i don't even want to listen to myslef talk anymore.

whatever