Struggled today
 

*Sigh*... been at a child protection inset training day for school today. It was hard. Every type of abuse was described in detail, all the symptoms...

It was so hard. I wanted to leave the room at times and cry but I couldn't because then they would all know about my past. Sometimes I just want to tell people how much it still hurts but I can't. I don't want people to look down at me or feel sorry for me or treat me differently... and they don't even know I'm still on medication for depression. *Sigh*

Sorry I don't know why I posted... I guess I just need a little support x

massive hugs hun, i cant imagine how hard that would have been but well done on sitting through it!!

Hope u are having a nice relaxing evening and doing something nice for yourself because u are feeling delicate xxxxx

I've been there, too. One of my friends got really upset by it and I am relatively certain she was never abused (she knows about my own experiences and we talk about a lot of things, but one can never know for sure). We were both upset by it, no one asked us anything, they just told us it was hard for them to watch, too. It's hard to watch if you have been abused (as I have), know someone who's abused (as she had), or just know children. That **** is messed up, you know?

Anyway, I just wanted to throw out there that even if it bothered you in a way that was obvious physically, no one would "know about [your] past." It's within your rights to be upset, and within your rights to not tell people on the off chance they were to ask you why you were upset. It's enough to say, child abuse is disgusting.

I'm not saying it's not hard to watch, just that everyone else is probably not going to "know" you know?