so scared
 

i want to cut so bad and i dont care what happens. im sick of crying i want them back .

Sounds like things are rough... I'm sorry about that :/ *hugs*

Is there something in particular making you feel so bad?

Hope you're alright. Hang in there.

i miss my mom and my grama my cousin and my friend.. they all left the world at the same time and its weird it hasnt been that long but it feels like they should all jump out and say surprise like they arent gone.. idk if this makes sense. None of them died in natural ways... it makes it harder

that sounds really difficult to handle. must be alot of emotions for you to have to deal with. is there anyone else grieving that you could talk to? try and get through it together.

no i dont trust anyone else

Oh hun, grief is so hard to handle, I totally empathise with you.
Maybe try to contact some bereavement helplines? They're trained to help you deal with your losses x

i dont know if i could talk out loud i dont wanna start crying

Thinking of You
 

My thoughts are with you. I don't really have the right words to say, but I wanted to let you know that I feel for you and wish I could give you the biggest hug ever, wrap my arms around you and tell you everything's going to be all right.

And I'm sure that people on bereavement helplines cry all the time, so please try not to worry about it. I would cry too if I were in your shoes, I think everyone would. So please don't feel bad about that, it's totally in your right to cry as much as you need to.

We're here for you <3 :-) <3

its weird all the people who raised you just gone and the memories but it feels like the people never existed and its hard to remember things like how they laughed