I'm inpatient. Again. *urgent*
 

I got your pm by the way, just about to reply but thought i would reply on here to.

Is there any nurses you could talk to, or you could talk to me?

*hugs* xx

Thank you *curls up*

I've talked to the nurses but it made me feel worse & I only have 5 minutes left online before I'm taken back to the ward. Thank you so much for being there though, you've got no idea what it means right now.

I understand how horrible and trapping it feels being inpatient, and am sending you many hugs. I think the way they're managing your care and treatment is ridiculous, and hopefully your struggles will show them that they need to start doing things differently.

It might be worth speaking to PALS at some point (they can be really helpful in my experience) or getting an advocate to help you get the support you need. But for now, maybe just try and allow the storm to settle a bit and get used to your surroundings.

xxx

hey katie. i am so sorry to hear that you are back inpatient. obviously this is where they felt you would be the safest. i am low on words at the moment, but i wanted you to know that i read your post here and r&v and i am thinking about you.

*safe hugs*

^ thank you. I really appreciate that. I'm already in contact with PALS & the advocacy service who are both trying to help but there isn't much they can do.

It is ridiculous. This is my 3rd admission in 2 months! The crisis team do all they can to keep me safe so they admit me, yet the consultant on the ward refuses to give me an admission longer than a week, so I get discharged and readmitted within a week or two. :crazy:

I'm stressed out of my mind. One of the horrible nurses yelled at me and I spent the whole morning crying. I hate this. I saw my outpatient psych last Thursday and he isn't even trying to help anymore. It's so disheartening. I don't know what to do with myself.

I can't think enough to sort my housing (I'm homeless in a month) or my uni work (exams in two weeks) and I keep trying to get help but they just aren't bothering.

I feel so incredibly low, isolated, ashamed and let down. :crying:

*Cuddles* I agree with laura about seeing if you can get an advocate about getting more support. It isn't right that you haven't been given the support you need. Hold on there xxx

*sits down hysterically crying*

I'm exhausted.

heya katie....sorry to hear you are inpatient again....please keep yourself safe and speak with the *nice* nurses....i would report the one that upset you earlier on hunni....you are in the right place xxxhugsxxx

Hi Katie I don't think we have 'spoken' before but I just wanted to let you know I read and I care. Is it worth getting onto the advocacy services again and saying just how bad things are?

Please feel free to pm me anytime, I have ED/SH/Depression etc myself so I have a little understanding xxx

Hugs Katie Im so sorry it does sound dreadful how you have been treated. I really hope PALS can help. Please dont give up. Im sorry to be low on wordsxx

Thank you for the hugs.

A guy from PALS has been helping me and I've also just got an advocate but the advocate can only express my views & the PALS guy can basically just do that as well although he's helped me with some complaints. It's the doctors & staff that aren't listening & seem more than happy to let me drop dead.

Although, I saw a dietician yesterday, 6 weeks after I requested one, and she was very good although it was extremely difficult & a huge wake up call. Apparently I have an eating disorder :crazy: She was just talking about all the complications and said that my ending up in ICU was probably down to not eating. My eating has been totally out of control recently.

I'm still totally exhausted & emotionally raw. Want to curl up & fade away.

I'm glad that you have at least a few people on your side, I really hope they help you get something sorted. I hope the suggestions from the dietician will help you. Hold on there hun.

Sorry that you are inpatient again, Katie. It sounds like you're in such a horrible place but it's good that you are getting some support. Thinking of you *cuddles*

Hugs Katie Im glad you have seen a dietician and she was helpful and supportive.Its scary place trying to accept you have an eating disorder and on top of everything else I cant imagine how it feels. Thinking of you. Sorry to be low on wordsxx

Thanks guys, means the world.

I had a horrific night last night. Another nurse was a complete bitch to me, saying that my dissociation was just me 'being difficult' and I left the ward and locked myself in a toliet because I was too scared to be on the ward with her. They dragged me out kicking and screaming and left me in the corridor where I was banging my head against the wall, literally, for half an hour. Eventually a nurse came to get me and calmed me down a little. It was awful.

I just had my last appointment with my psychologist, which is a relief because she was crap but I'm worried about what happens from now and needing a therapist. I'm going to speak to the PALS guy.

I think you need to get PALS to ramp up a formal complaint against the staff in the ward, and your (now ex-?)Psych. It is horrible that you are not being provided the care you need and provide.

I am so sorry to read this thread and hear what you are being put through, Katie. I lack proper words right now, but am thinking of you and sending as much strength your way as I can.

Roiben x

h...sweetie i am so sorry to hear your back in there
and im sorry to hear the nurses arent very nice and she had no right saying that to you
is their anyone higher up you can complain to
you deserve to be treated with respect *massive hugs*

I'm not coping.

I just found out when my exams are and they are sooner than I thought, my mum & sister are both breaking down, I'm fat & the stress is too much. They took my laxatives off me yesterday *argh* & I tried to discharge myself & get a week supply of meds so I could OD but they didn't have them in stock.

I've actually already got a formal complaint on the go but haven't heard anything back from it. I'm too tired & broken to fight anymore. No strength left.


Thank you for the hugs.

Thinking of you hun, is there anyway you can defer your exams for a bit until your feeling a bit better? Hold on there, you will make it through this