crossroad
 

so further to my five billion other posts, i was talking a while with a friend and decided (despite the literature degree) that i want to become a nurse. newcastle still offer the funded diploma. i got excited but turns out N doesnt want us to ctay tgether long distance, veen if its from nex march or sept, even hough she said it would work if i went somewhere else
so
basically
it is over if o dont want to stay here. i said i would rather stay and keep her. she said she would rater i go and if i go theres no point being together.
i cant type right i cant express.i hate being awake i can barely work. if n doesbt want us to be together then.................

whats the point like
i,m safe/.
im ony sorry

im not safe. please do not worry, i will not be stuupid. i just feel.

In my heart i feel that you have to do what ever it takes for you to get well and move on. I think quite rightly you want to have your partner there but i also think perhaps you rely on her a little and it can become an excuse? I think you owe it to both of you to take control of yourself and do what is right.

You know writing is hard and hit and miss. Nursing is more solid and something you can build on. You can still write during the course!

The thought of losing the person you love may seem like the end, but perhaps this is a new beginning? If you are offered this oportunity then take it! If you dont and your relationship ends you may be the one resenting her for your missed chances. If you take this now then at least you will know you tried. At least you have a chance to wipe the slate clean and really focus your mind on something positive and worthwile!

thanks- am considering your advice

sorry if the thread i posted was worrying, i was a bit drunk. surprise.