ready to give up
 

it feels like i cant tell anyone cuz theyll think im such a dissapointment. like i should be over the deaths of my mom and stuff. its been allmost six months i dont wanna cry anymore im sick of cryingg. i dont know why i got the thought to od i usually only si. but i was reading the bottle nad it pops in my head and it sounded like a good idea. idk whats going on like im drownin and noones there to save me i have noone to run to. i wanna give up. im seriously sitting here trying not to do it like i feel like a eff up

hi i do think that 6 months is not a long time at all, it takes time to get over that you are still grieving and what you are going through is a big thing, i do think that talking to a proffesional might help you to deal with what you are going through, you are in a dark place right now and even though you cant see it you will come through it.

as for the oding if you od you need to get medical help straight away as any od is dangerous, i understand its a way of coping but it does not make your problems go away, and just makes you feel so ill the next day, it must be really hard for you you are not alone, we are all here for you on this site and feel free to pm me anytime if you need to talk, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel even if at times we cant see it HUGS

i didnt do it i woke up and i still kind of want to

it is really good that you didn't do it you should be very proud of yourself for that. i understand that the feeling is still there but you are doing so well to fight it distracting yourself is a very good technique even if its watching something on tele or doing simple puzzles hugs

i feel really bad i even had a backup plan

Please be careful, and try not to hurt yourself.

how are you doing now? i really hope your safe we are all here for you feel free to pm me hugs

i cant stop thinking about how i just want to see my family again each day is so hard i just want to hug my grama again :( and my mom and its just so frustrating

Why can't you see your family?

theyre dead i was raised by my grama and gramp but my grampa dtiched us in 07 and never looked back , he left for someone he met online and and my grama died from a 4 yr fight with cancer in 08. i never knew my dad or anyother family. and when my grammpa left his family didnt care about me and my grama. then last year my mom died so its pretty much never getting better. i want to tell u the rest but im crying and i dont like it. but im basically on my own now its hard to see each day and all i want is my grampa to care but hes never gonna change. he raised me and hes the only living thing left from my childhood but he doenst care. i jsut want to hug them all again and have a family a gain

Oh, I'm so sorry, about everything.
You've really been "through the mill". :/
Things are going to get better though; it's not like any of that stuff can happen twice.


Is your Grandma still around?
How are you feeling now?