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Hi,
I warn this evening I'm just feeling shit so this will probably be a mix of venting and stupid questions I seem to replay in my head every night.
I guess I just realised that I'm not getting better,things are Not changing for the better,I just caved in and accepted this shit.
If this is the norm for me now.should I just accept it? Everynight a struggle from midnight to atleast 4 or 5am and then spending the whole day exhausted worn out mentally and just bracing myself for the night again.
I've tried all ideas,I've done every recommendation...but still here I am.
I don't feel sorry for myself because I don't deserve that privilege.
Id just like some answers.i bought my first lottery ticket today and didn't get a single number and thats how I'm feeling right now.
I feel like a warn out tape, my days seem to loop and the quality of it only seems to get worse as the batteries run out

I'm sorry you're having such a bad time.
Do you think it might be a good idea to try to go to bed earlier, so that you don't have to deal with this stuff?

Might it be time to get to your GP and sort some meds out in the short term to help stabilise your sleep?

It must be hard spending so much time at night struggling with little restful sleep. Do you think there's things you can do to change your sleeping habits?

I think sometimes it can feel like things will never change, especially when things have been hard for a while. But nothing stays the same forever, things can improve, things can change. Is there anyone who you can get support from, like a doctor/therapist/counsellor?

bit low on words but just wanna say im sorry to here things arent so great
and te suggestions people have said above would be worth giving ago *hugs*

I think you should really consider doing this as lack of sleep only results to increase feelings like this; often we will generally feel better if we aren't getting enough sleep.
I'm sorry things are so difficult for you atm but remember, you could always try and change the tape; if you are really genuinely unhappy about how your life is playing out right now think about things you could do to change how you're living, ie: new job? new location? etc.
xxx