my cousin got killed
 

my cousin died and im so numb and stuff
i just don't care about anything im trying to get over losing my mom she died on christmas. i feel like jsut cutting and cutting like i dont even care. the fact that hes dead cuz someone was stupid is the hardest part. I'm really not sure what to do i mean i know what i really wanna do right now and i jsut don't wanna dissapoint people but this really hurts :(

*giant hugs* i'm really sorry, and i know that my saying that isn't enough, but i really am sorry. losing two people who you love in such a short time is really really rough and painful.

can you stay around other family members, so that you aren't able to hurt yourself. all help take care of each other

i live alone now so i feel so lost

Hey. I am sorry about your cousin and your mom. *hugs* Its tough to get through, but you can do it! It will take some time, but it is possible.

Please dont cut or sh. Anyone you can talk to? Call at the moment? Try to distract your mind from self harming. May be hard and I feel for you! You can do this though!

Sorry I am kind of low on words. *Hugs*

i called one of my cuzins but she doestn live close and i jsut i feel numb and i want to feel idk if that makes sense

How are you doing right now? I really hope that you're safe.
Please be careful and look after yourself and go to hospital if you need to.

i'm not doing good at all i can't sleep i can't do anything wihtout crying my eyes out. i jsut feel like im soo numb that i want to feel something. This whole thing doesnt feel real i want to scream i jsut don't care

Your feelings are valid. I lost my grandmother in 2007. It was the hardest emotional thing i have ever faced. Do you know of any immediate coping skills that can help you in the moment?

Trekkiecab

p.s. pm me if you want

the only thing i know is cutting but the struggle to not do that is soo hard but i want too i hate it

i reallly don't know waht to do anymore like i feel soo numb and i want to feel something so i'm reallly sturggling to not cut

not sure what your weather is like atm, but could you go out for a run or walk, or bike? doing that is really helpful for clearing my head and getting some feelings out. it kinda releives some of the tension that i find difficult to put into words.

it is raining

It's sunny here. :)

How are you doing?
If you're feeling unsafe, could you tell someone or go to the hospital?

:( i cant deal with that

people will think im crazy

People won't think you're crazy. Let someone know what's going on.

Its just last time i told someone about cutting i was ambushed and yelled at and made to feel like i was wrong about how i feel. Its like people don't understand

*massive hugs*
sorry to here what has happened hunni
i know this must be really hard for you at the momment but u just need to take it slow and be gentle with yourself you still need time to grieve
and im afraid yes this will hurt for a very long time and always will but as time passes tha pain eases a little more and easier to coope
it just takes time
and when your ready to maybe you should talk to a proffesiiional or counsillor
or just offload whats on your mind
just rember your mum and cousin will always be looking over you
stay strong xxxxxxxxxxxx

I just can't stop crying and it's hard to sleep i can't shake these urges and everytime i see his face i break down. he was just stolen from us :(

today is his birthday too