I need some support today...
 

I've recently decided to try and get into treatment. I've picked a place that accepts my insurance and everything and I think I'll really like and benefit from this place. Only thing is, it's in chicago when I'm in atlanta...that will probably be the main reason for me not going if i don't go. I've decided that today I'm going to tell my mom about me wanting to get help and I'm terrified. My mom has tried twice in the past to have me admitted into in-patient treatment programs but I wasn't ready then. I am now and I'm sure she'll be relieved about my choice it's just really scary and hard to admit out loud that I need help. I would just really love some advice or any thoughts what so ever and come encouragements please...I'm extremely nervous and I need some courage.

Hey, just wanted to post and say how brave I think you are for deciding to get help. It's a big and scary step but you're doing it :).
As for telling your mum, say you need to talk about something and it's important so could she sit down with you for a bit while you tell her?
I find the best way for me to tell someone something is to either write it all down or just blurt it out.
Good luck.

Thank you! :) I just don't think I can keep living how I've been living and I can't let death be an option anymore so this is my only other option... Thank you so much for what you said and you're advice...I think I'm just gonna end up blurting it out because every time I try to think of what to say, I come up blank so we'll see what happens.

go for it :) when i went to residencial it was immeasurably positive and helpful for me. and i'd try and tell her soon, as it might take a bit for them to actually have an opening, so you'll want to get the process started

I went to a residential programme for treatment and found it helpful to write my mum a letter explaining everything and then following it with a chat.

Have you tried outpatient therapy before going to a program?

Really proud of you for getting help, what a great step :)
You deserve to feel better than this I hope it helps xx

I agree what a brave decision.I really hope you get the help you need.Hugsx

Thank you guys so much! I did end up telling my mom. She was very understanding and actually relieved and grateful that I've decided to get help. We called our insurance and the treatment center and my insurance wouldn't cover the program that I wanted to get into so I'm looking for other places or reconsidering outpatient. I have tried outpatient before but it never worked. I'm going to give it one last shot and if outpatient doesn't work again then I'll have to find a treatment center and do inpatient. I haven't given up despite the fact that I was crushed because I couldn't go to the place I wanted.

Thats great you are going to keep trying! I am sure you will find another place you will like though. Does it help any more knowing that your mom is being supportive and all? Outpatient again... worth a shot. Cant exactly hurt if you are trying. How are you feeling today? Dont give up! You are really brave :)

It does help that my mom is supportive. I'm still looking at places in my state. I'm also looking for therapists for outpatient too. Today has been ok. Thoughts about self harming but I haven't yet. :) Thank you.

Its really great that she is there! Does your mom and you have a close relationship as well About the sh, good you havent done anything yet and try to not let there be a yet.

Well done for telling your mum! You're v brave and should be rpoud of yourself.
Sorry you couldn't go where you wanted to, do you have anyone who provides professional support to you who could help you find somewhere? Your dr could probably help too.
Keep fighting the urges, you're doing well.

My mom and I have a...decent relationship. We have out major fights and then we have our major loving moments. I love her with all my heart and We've always been like that...when I was growing up, it was just me and my mom it felt like. My dad was an abusive drunk and my brother was always mean to me so it was basically me and my mom against the world. We've always been close to an extent but there's always that unconditional love there. I don't have any professional support system or anything of the sort. I'm looking tho. I'm gonna try just having a regular therapist and see if that works but if not then I'll have to do inpatient.
Tonight I'm really struggleing though. I'm fighting the urges but I don't think it will work...I can't sleep I'm barely eating...I don't know why...I'm so exhausted mentally and physically and I just want to get better...

How are you doing today? Did you manage to get some sleep?
Do you think you could try to eat something?