I'm so sorry but I'm getting desperate.
 

HATE HATE HATE

It's like a monster inside me but it';s not inside me it's actually me , this what i am oh fuck i can't bear it any more. I'm on my own in a foreign country and my friends at home are so sick of me talking and i just feel horrendous i don't know who to turn to any more I'm scared. I wish someone was here to hold me and talk to me. I think I'm going mad. I'm so sorry - i seem to say that phrase all time but i really am i wish i could make this stop please please.

I know it can be overwhelming at times, but I also know you're better than that <3
xxx