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And I try to do so

Im redusing my meds.

And my mum has cancer &* my best friend died in 08 from suicide & I am lost. I am graduating & feeling a full time job, & I have prospects.

But I dont want any? I want to cave in. I want to be looked after. B ut it will ne ver happen cos for some reason i cant stop and everone calls that "strenght"

im fucked off. Il prob delate this.

Siany, I'm shit with words right now, but please keep on fighting, I wish you would have told me how you felt, you know I am ALWAYS here for you.

I can't say I know how it feels, because I don't, I can relate with a close friend committing suicide, but not with your mum sweetheart, but please, know I am always a text/BBM/call away okay?

Don't delete this. You NEED support.
Let yourself have that.

I love you Cheetah Twinny.
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As above, please don't delete this, you sound like you really need some support right now. And that's ok, because you're allowed to need support. You don't have to be strong all the time, everyone needs some help sometimes.

My mum has cancer too, so I understand that side of things. I know how scary it is, and how lost you feel sometimes, how overwhelming it can be. And everyone says to 'Stay strong' and 'Be positive', and sometimes you just want to break down and cry because you don't want to be positive or strong, you need someone to look after you and reassure you and tell you it will be ok, because things like that, and experiences of losing someone like you have, things like that can make you feel like you're suddenly having to 'grow up' a lot faster than you want to (if that makes sense).

Are you getting any support at the moment, do you have anyone you can talk to?

I'm sorry if this doesn't help, but if you ever want to talk you can always message me. x

Thank you for your replies, they mean a lot!

Im ok day to day really, with everything, but I'd had some wine and fought with my mum when I posted this, and emotions got everywhere.

But thanks cos it really helped to read these xxxxx