I hate it here, I hate this place. (Rant/Trigger)
 

Yes, grounding me will totally make me want to be here with my family. Want to know why I hate them? Because when I asked for help, in the middle of a breakdown, my dad dragged me inside, and told me I was embarrassing him. My mom told me I can't act crazy like that. Way to go, that makes me feel better. And then my boyfriend and best friend take me out to make me feel better, but no, I'm twenty minutes late coming home, because we needed gas, and she grounds me. "How did you not notice you needed gas?" Maybe if he didn't share a car with people, and cart everyone around all day, it would be more noticeable for him. Bitch. And now I can't see him. Why are you fucking punishing him? It's my god damn fault, I knew when you wanted me home, and he did his best. But no, she doesn't want me hanging out with him because he's "irresponsible". I want to cut so badly again. I'm just so mad, I want to feel nothing. I can't even have one good night without being punished for having it. And their daughter is happy again, going out again, but no. Punish her the second you get. I'm sorry, for wasting your time with my bullshit....

*hugs* I'm sorry that things are difficult with your family at the moment. Do you get any support for your self-harm?
Is there another family member who you might be able to stay with for a bit?

No, I don't. I have a few friends, but my mom pretends they aren't there, or if they're really obvious, she yells at me, then ignores them. My dad doesn't care at all about what either of his children do, hell I had a boyfriend for over a month before, and he didn't know...

Hmm, that must be very difficult. Have you tried speaking to your parent's about this?