Anyone?
 

I'm just curious..
What do you live for?

I'm just desperate and trying to find a better way of thinking because I'm so close to just.. Yeah.

Probably my little sister. I'd hate to think how it would be for her all her life having had a sister who'd killed herself.

Hm. I just wonder what the point in doing stuff is because things don't make much of a difference, yeah. :/

In answer to your first question, I would have to say family and friends. Also the hope that things can get better. It can feel like we aren't doing anything to make a difference but sometimes it's the smallest things that can make a difference such as a smile or a kind word. Is there a particular reason why you're asking this?

I do think family and friends at times but a lot of the time I question whether they actually hate me. I know a fair few of them do. & people just forget I exist a lot of the time because I'm silly and I hide and avoid things.
Yeah small things do tend to make a difference. But I can't ever predict what will make me feel better/worse.
I'm asking this because I'm at the point where I'm trying to find a way out before I end up doing something quite stupid. x

Sometimes we can't always see the answer but we have to have faith that it is there. When we are in a dark head space it can feel like the world is against us but this is just the negative thoughts talking. Do you have any support like a counsellor or a doctor?

I just haven't felt like actually being here in quite a long time.
& no- I'm too scared to go back into counselling or the doctors x