Just messing everything up!
 

I always seem to mess stuff up, makes me suicidal and wanna take bloody chunks out my thighs to punish myself for ruining everything in my life....!

I mean what's the point of trying if it's gonna crash around me? I just wanna let it bleed.... I think I don't wanna think anymore and I don't think that's normal? Out of nowhere I feel like my lifes crashing around me and all I do is cause less damage than fix it, I don't know how to make it better?

I'm just all wrong to everyone even myself, I feel worthless and I wish I didn't? I just don't know how to fit in? All I know is to bleed and hurt and squeeze out every drop of blood that I can get....

Not even sure if this is the right place.... I just dont know what to do, I'm sorry...

*hugs*
You have nothing to be sorry for. Well done for reaching out for help. In what way do you feel that you have messed things up? Whatever has happened, you do not deserve to be punished.

Do you have any professional help for this?

Just everything.... I've messed up everything and it makes me hat my life... Makes me know I deserve punishment....

Yeah, but I hate my professionals they don't help me...

What do you think you've messed up? I'm sure it's not as bad as it seems.
You do not deserve to be punished.